Ugh. Okay. *rubs her hands over her face*
This is going to be a long one because I have a lot of things to address. I would probably have ended this earlier but something happened recently that kinda lit a fire under my ass. After several tears and a night of shitful sleep, I woke annoyed and, well, I don’t really care anymore about mincing my words.
So there was a lot of stuff said in a couple of EROS’ recent streams. Yes, I heard them. I haven’t watched a stream of his in some time because I got to the point a while back where I just forgot about them entirely, but these ones were brought to my attention, for obvious reasons.
I addressed one of the things that irritated me in a previous post because it was textbook manipulative behaviour, but there were a handful of things that stood out for me while I listened. This time, surprisingly, he actually sprinkled a little truth in amongst all the lies and exaggeration. I was surprised to hear him address his relationships and sexting. I suppose it had to be addressed considering it’s being talked about at the moment but it’s interesting how flippantly they were addressed considering he’s ripped apart other creators for taking advantage of their position in a similar fashion.
Power Dynamics
I’m no “puritan”. I don’t give two shits who is sexting who as long as there’s consent and consent can be given. I do, however, recognise a couple of little things called “power dynamics” and “power imbalances” when it comes to relationships, whether they be intimate ones or not.
When you are in a position where you have a degree of celebrity, a platform, a fanbase, reach and influence, this puts you in a position of power over those who follow you.
It’s all well and good to say things like, “I’m just a guy. I’m a real person. This is me. I have normal guy urges and needs. I am allowed to have a relationship. I am allowed to sext women I meet. Especially when I’m off the clock.” but when you are also arguing, in the same breath, “I am playing a part. I am a character. I fulfill your fantasy. I work 25/8. None of this is real, you will never know the real me, you are taking things too seriously”… is it really any wonder lines get blurred and people get hurt?
Who, exactly, is sexting these women? The man or the persona? Is it real or an act? Is it off the clock or on the clock?
Considering the man claims to work 25/8 and is sexting these women from his “work” accounts, using his “work persona” the argument that he is allowed to have a personal life and relationships with whomever he chooses “off the clock” simply doesn’t fly.
Wait, streams are on the clock, right? Just to confirm.
*stretches & groans loudly*
IYKYK
A NOT SO SAFE SPACE
When you advertise your discord as a safe space for women on the internet, you are probably going to attract a demographic largely made up of women who want to feel safe on the internet. Funny that. You know, women who want a place away from sleazy men. Sexist men. Incels. You, though? You’re safe. You’re different to all those men we constantly run into on the net, the men we constantly read about. You are offering us a sanctuary away from all of that. Right?
He’s addressed, on many occasions, the fact that his work tends to attract obsessive personalities. Women who want him, develop feelings for him, can’t handle rejection. Women who are “truly unhinged“. For him to repeatedly rant about this…
But still dip his toe straight into that pool to satisfy his sexual urges?
This is where those pesky power dynamics come into play. He is the one in a position of power. If he was a decent person, he would be satisfying his urges elsewhere. He is supposed to say no if his patrons approach him because it’s inappropriate, much like when a boss fucks his subordinates. It doesn’t matter if it’s consensual, it’s still inappropriate for several reasons.
Is that why he got so pissy about the Try Guys tweet incident? Because he knew damn well that’s exactly what he was doing – engaging in inappropriate sexual relationships where there was a clear power imbalance?
“Dohhh they’d have been less upset if the guy had murdered someone. Dohhh“.
“Guys. Stop intentionally misinterpreting and twisting my words. Geeez. I meant this: *says something entirely different to what he initially posted*“.
*rolls her eyes* Make it make sense.
I don’t know many guys who would be able to exist in the position he is in without taking advantage of the situation, alleged sex addiction or no.
Think about all the men you know. Now imagine them running a discord full of women who adore them, stroke their ego constantly, discuss how wet they make their panties on a daily basis, slide into their dms, clamber over one another to get close to them etc. How many of the men you know would be able to run that discord and keep all those relationships purely platonic? Be honest now.
So why, as a self proclaimed “sex addict” would you intentionally put yourself in a position where you are tempted on a daily basis by the very thing you are addicted to? Why pretend to be something you are clearly not, when you could just run your discord honestly – as a place for you to get your dick wet, while making money. Is it the thrill of doing it all in secret? Is it the thrill of lying to all these women? Knowing that they think you are some unicorn among men but, really, you are just another cishet dude on the net, using his entitlement, power and position to lure vulnerable women into your “safe space” where you can safely manipulate and use them behind closed doors?
Muddied waters
So I noticed a few times that he went straight from making pointed remarks, that were clearly aimed at certain people, to talking about really serious matters and potentially criminal acts. And, yes, I know he likes to say that we think he’s talking about us because we are delusional women who want his attention and can’t have it. All while making direct references to things we have said on our accounts or our personal information.
At one point he spoke about women who would collude with one another regarding sliding into his DMs as soon as he was drunk on stream. I’m not sure how he would know that women are colluding to take advantage of him when drunk. I mean, I assume they aren’t going up to him and saying “tee hee, we all colluded to take advantage of you while you were drunk”. Are they discussing their plans in a public vc?
IYKYK
Anyway, my issue is not that I think he lied about this, I mean the guy is open about drinking during most of his streams, it stands to reason that if sexting happens during or after stream while he’s supposedly drunk, assuming the other party is sober, he’s being taken advantage of regardless of who does the sliding because everyone knows drunk people can’t consent (is this why so many of the girls drink, or pretend to drink, every single stream? So if any sliding into dms is done by them, they can justify it by saying they were drunk? Is that why he rarely has a sober stream?). My issue is that he went from making pointed remarks aimed at specific people into that doozy. So all his followers went straight from being told about these bothersome E-Girls who have left or been booted from his discord to a story about consent and him being taken advantage of while drunk. Hmm. Can you see why I might be a little irked about that?
When I talk about manipulation, this is one example of what I’m talking about. He doesn’t clarify. He never does. He muddies all of his messages or leaves them vague so his followers end up filling in the blanks themselves. Everyone gets lumped into one massive pot of shit. He gives out snippets of factual or personal information such as time-frames or ages. He will quote specific tweets or posts. He gives people enough to guess who he’s referring to, then he will go off on a rant about people committing illegal activities or taking advantage of him. He hints at connections where there simply are none. And he does this all while speaking from his platform to god knows how many followers knowing damn well what he’s encouraging by doing so.
A Sprinkling of Truth
By sprinkling a little truth in amongst the bullshit, you become much more believable. The exaggerations and lies become more palatable to your audience, especially those who might be having slight doubts. “Oh wow, he just admitted to sexting and having relationships, I was wondering about that… he must be telling the truth about everything else”. That’s not how it works, it’s just one of the best ways to sell a lie. It also wouldn’t surprise me to find that he receives a lot more patrons sliding into his dms now that they realise his previous messages about not wishing to be sexualised were actually PR bullshit and the guy’s been sexting half his discord this entire time. Kinda killed two birds with one stone there.
Also the whole “they respond to everything I say as though it’s meant for them”. Implying we are obsessed because we respond to his shit. Christ. If I wanna respond to shit that I know is pointed, I’ma respond to it. Is he obsessed because he constantly rants about those who have left? What’s good for the goose n all that.
Why don’t you go get more “super generalised” art commissioned. I bet having to repeatedly stress how generalised the instructions were to your patrons must have fuckin’ hurt. Lmfao.
Cyber Lies
So, this is just one example of the kinda shit he posts.
Months, huh? Awful specific. See how he does that? He’s hinted at everyone here who left in the past year. Myself included.
I love how he will rant and rave about how we all think the e-girls who believe him are “stupid” and two seconds later imply that anyone who believes us are “gullible” or that we think they are gullible for believing us. So, not only do we think ya’ll are stupid for believing him, we also think you are gullible for believing us. Again, for the love of everything holy, make it make sense. But, of course, he does this to paint us as the bad guy because he’s running damage control and instead of just owning up to his shit like someone who is “trying to be better” would do, he’s running around trying to save his fanbase by throwing blame our way. You know, so you turn your backs on us. Because we are horrible, lying, rejects who couldn’t stand that we wanted his pixel dick and he wouldn’t give it to us. This, despite the fact, you know nothing about this man but you got to know us over the course of almost a year, if not longer.
Also we are the ones talking about him constantly? Ok. Sure.
The whole “women who wanted me but couldn’t have me” thing starts the second you are booted or leave. He’s been singing the same tune since I’ve known him, god knows how long before that. You don’t even have to talk about him for him to accuse you of being a scorned woman. The arrogance in his words is absolutely astounding.
You wish you were my favourite subject.
You wish I wanted to play games with you.
You wish I wanted your pixel dick.
You got shitty that I didn’t want you on my lovense.
You got angry that I tried out my toy with someone other than you.
You were jealous of my “wow boyfriend” and “newfound voice kink”. (wtf?)
Let that sink in. As a reader, what’s your reaction when you read that?
I’m gonna take a wild guess and say that you automatically thought something along the lines of, “who does she think she is? As if he would be jealous”. If I am correct I want you to ask yourself why you think it’s okay for this man to do exactly the same thing on countless occasions to multiple women, yet he faces no such judgement or criticism for doing so? Are we so desperate for the attention and acceptance of a man we don’t know that we are willing to overlook even the most blatant of red flags?
I’m not sure who he is referring to in that last screenshot. I can only speak for myself and the very small group of ex e-girls I currently hang out with, and I certainly never hated anyone when I was on that server. I have definitely disliked people and have been suspicious about people’s motives. I’ve said things about people in private based on information I now know was probably bullshit, considering the source. But I’ve been upfront about that with anyone I happen to hang around or speak with now.
It’s funny how he surrounds himself with people who I know for a fact dislike one another, yet sits there casting aspersions on others he doesn’t know a single thing about. Please, tell me more about how we all hated one another. What are you basing this information on? The information you are getting from the liars you keep beside you? Have any of them been up front about the things they divulged to me? Has S? Or did she just cherry pick our group chat and you were like, “oh gee, what an asshole Frontbum turned out to be”? Yeah, because it’s completely normal for people to do 180’s like that without good reason.
Those girls lie and scheme to get where they are, and you think they aren’t lying to you to stay put? Of course you know they are. Which begs the question, why keep them around? I mean, I get the desire for sycophants, but I do wonder if it’s more a case of keeping your enemies closer than it is actual friendship.
You defend S, claiming Fibs and I “wouldn’t have stopped until she shit-talked” you with us. I’m not sure what she told you or showed you to make you believe that nonsense, or if you were just lying at the time to try and get Pickles back on side. Well, sorry, but Pickles already knew what had gone on with me and S and she also knew exactly what happened with our last conversation together. You know, the one where I supposedly “spat in your face” because I didn’t accept your “olive branch” of an ultimatum lmfao. She saw straight through your bullshit manipulation, she realised very quickly that the catalyst for this entire situation was probably one person – someone who was supposed to be my friend. Pickles, being the kind-hearted person she is, saw an opportunity to open dialogue between us and, I dunno, maybe fix things. The way you treated her when you realised she had approached me to try and clear things up between us? Fucking shameful.
I know for a fact you accept screenshots. I also know you reciprocate despite your constant ravings about how private conversations should remain private. You can thank S for that one, too.
Of course we all know why you want private conversations to remain private and why you act as though those who share private conversations are the scum of the earth. I suppose if I was trying to keep so many dirty little secrets from my platform because it flew in the face of the public persona I was trying to uphold, I’d probably rant about people who share private conversations too. I mean, it’s certainly not going to serve you if certain things that occurred in private are shared on social media and prove you are a liar.
Boundaries
Ooh, ooh I’ve blocked them and they don’t respect that. How dare.
Dude, you’ve blocked me on, like, one thing – twitter.
You leave doors ajar everywhere, god only knows why when you constantly bang on about blocking and boundaries. I bet if I hadn’t removed you from lovense when you accepted my accidental friend request, despite me telling you not to, you’d have kept that door open as well.
I don’t usually block people. I’ve been on the internet since dialup days and I never have felt the need to. I don’t see the point. If you wanna block me, block me. I don’t care. That being said, if you have a public profile and you have a record of ranting about the people who have left your server, I’m gonna occasionally check to make sure you aren’t talking shit about those of us who don’t deserve your bs. If you want people to stop reading your public profile, stop talking about them. Stop lying about them. Stop exaggerating and manipulating and talking utter shit. I would love to just forget about you and enjoy gaming with my friends, but when you are out there talking shit about me and my friends to your self-proclaimed large following, you make that difficult.
Is it what you want? Do you like having someone to bitch and whine about because it helps push your victim narrative?
Here’s a thought, instead of booting the people who like us, why doesn’t he try booting the people who constantly engage us despite having no fucking clue what’s going on? Boot the people constantly regurgitating his bullshit and making us feel the need to defend ourselves. I mean he told them not to engage us, right? So? Why doesn’t he boot them? I’ll tell you why, because that wouldn’t help push his narrative, however booting people who like us just strengthens the fear that already permeates that place. It makes people shut down their accounts. It makes them remove us from their accounts. It makes them scared to even be seen interacting with us.
I, personally, haven’t actually approached anyone about this on social media since being booted. The only people I’ve spoken to about the discord are people who have approached me and I’ve only ever told them the truth.
Clearing things up
- Contrary to what the man told his best friends and, I can only assume, others, I did not have a sexting relationship with him. I don’t care if you did but if he tells you otherwise where I’m concerned, he’s a lying sack of shit.
- I did not want to have a sexting relationship with him. Had he been a decent guy, I might have, but he also banged on about not sexualising him so often it was automatically off the table for me. I also didn’t like the tactics he used during normal conversations. People who respond with “?” because they want you to divulge more information before they say their piece don’t get to see my tits and ass. That’s not to say he wanted to sext me. I don’t know, nor do I care. All I know is the only time he initiated a private conversation with me was when I was being “horny” with a handful of other girls in the wowchan. He messaged me “to warn me” that someone had been taking screenshots of that channel and I should be careful. I laughed and apologised, saying I woke up on the horndog side of bed that morning. He proceeded to tell me about his lengthy fap sesh that morning and a humourous, slightly flirty but very brief conversation ensued. The conversation came to an abrupt end when I changed the subject. I had my suspicions about him dming me and confirmed later that he hadn’t private messaged any of the other girls at the time. Just me. Now you could say he was “being nice” and giving a “friend” the heads up. But, yeah, needless to say I don’t think that’s his style. lol. We also weren’t friends, despite what he claims now because it suits his victim mentality. In my opinion he was simply “testing the waters”.
- I haven’t approached anyone about that discord since being booted. Have I been approached? Sure. Of course I have. Have some of the people who have approached me been less than genuine in their motives? Absolutely. Do I care? No, no I don’t, that’s on them. I know full well that anything I say to anyone from that discord will likely make it’s way to other people, if not straight to him. Anything I say I would happily say publicly. I’ve had people approach me, get upset with me and then later realise I was telling the truth. I’ve had people talk to me for days about the discord and then remove me from their socials after one of his dodgy speeches. I’ve had people try to fish for info from me. I’ve had people dm me simply to wish me well because they agree with everything I am saying but are too scared to do anything about it themselves.
- I haven’t “poached” anyone from his discord since being booted, nor have I tried to poach anyone.
- I am part of a discord who game together. The discord was created before I was booted. It was created before anyone I currently hang out with left his discord. It was created so we could vc with some of the guys I had befriended in WoW. Or, as he likes to refer to one of them, my “wow boyfriend”. For the record, horniboi is not and was not ever my “wow boyfriend” and that voice kink tweet of mine? That wasn’t about him. lmao. I didn’t create the discord. We needed a space to be able to hang out with our gamer friends who happened to possess dicks, because they weren’t allowed in his discord. Nothing nefarious. *shrug*
- There were a couple of “E-girls” in our discord who have since left. We gave them the option of staying or leaving. They decided to leave. They are still E-girls and they are close to him. One seems to have gotten much closer since leaving our discord, which is interesting considering the information she was privy to while in our discord. I assume she utilised that information well. The other has always been close to him and remains close, probably closer. Despite sharing what was, arguably, some of the most concerning information I had heard, the only time she became truly upset with him was when he was a meanie-poo at her during stream games. Major red flag. As I’ve said before, some people definitely take advantage of situations like this. There’s a whole “I’m going to use this situation to ingratiate myself to him” thing that happens when people are booted. I mean, surprise, surprise, people are selfish.
- My interactions with people he keeps close have been incredibly minimal since being given the boot. I have interacted with a handful of girls on there, but the second I realise they want nothing to do with me I avoid having anything to do with them.
I don’t think I’ve so much as targeted his characters since being kicked.
- I have a private twitter account. I’ve not tweeted any dirty secrets on there. I’ve made it pretty clear what I think of him, his sycophants and the way he runs that discord, but I’ve done this without dishing any of the personal information that was told to me by S and anyone else. And when I say the information was told to me, I mean it quite literally. I didn’t ask for 99% of the information she spilled in our group chat or in our private vcs. Nor did I ask for any of the personal information other people in his circle have divulged to me.
My tweets, thus far, have been about my personal experiences on that discord with him and certain people. Any posts regarding him specifically have been replies to his bs posts or rants because of the way he intentionally muddies things and misleads.
- I have not and will not ever be involved in doxing of any kind. Nor will I associate with anyone involved in doxing. I do not care what this man looks like, where he lives or who he is. I know enough already to know the kind of person he is and I don’t care to know any more.
- Everything I have said is the truth. Unlike some people, I am not a liar. Obviously there are things I know that I am not sharing and will not share because I’m not in the habit of sharing other people’s personal stories. The only reason I am even typing this is because my hand has been forced. I am not going to sit by and do nothing when someone is using their influence to try and make me and my friends out to be bad people. We are not the villains in this ridiculous tale despite the fact I seem to have been cast as his arch nemesis for some fucking reason.
Boop boop
Anytime I interact with someone in a game it’s because they are someone I knew in that discord and liked. It’s not some weird flex like certain people from his camp seem to enjoy. Since being booted there have been, maybe, four women from that discord who have interacted with me. Mind you the majority of them refuse to interact publicly, choosing to whisper and not react outwardly to my presence in any way. It’s so obvious that my new friends have noticed that a bunch of us are basically being ignored.
I don’t usually let this stuff get to me. I expected it. We’ve all seen it before. You get booted from that place, you are treated like shit by most of the remaining members of the discord, especially if you speak out against the guy running the joint. I get it. You like the guy. I don’t. Therefore, the law dictates, we can’t associate any longer.
Recently, though, I realised someone I cared about had removed me from her socials. I’d been noticing her in the game more often, hanging out with him and his main group, whereas previously she’d been playing the game by herself. I had waved at her a couple of times and hadn’t gotten a response, which I thought odd at the time. When I noticed she’d removed me from her socials, I got worried and I decided to dm her to let her know that I hadn’t realised she’d removed me and was sorry for interacting with her in the game recently. I wished her well and left it at that. I came back a short time later to find that she had blocked me.
I was kind of surprised at how much it upset me. Up until that point, the girls blocking me or ignoring me hadn’t really affected me too much.
It’s not the only time I’ve noticed his group will start including people who are friendly with me or who are playing with me. He’s done it a few times. Most recently with someone who has been running dungeons with me. They haven’t ever played with her before, now suddenly they feel the urge to after I’ve been running dungeons with her. I’m not sure if this is him or the girls around him. Either case wouldn’t surprise me.
Oh, actually, there’s an idea. You feeling excluded? Come run some dungeons with me. See how quickly you get welcomed back into the fold. You know, to be dragged by your ass through a few dungeons so they can key-farm you for free valor and then ignore you for another couple of months. Fun times.
Valo-ranting
Another thing I have noticed about the discord is the amount of concern there is over whether or not he “likes” you. If I had a dollar for every time there was a discussion on this I would be rich. And, yeah, I get that we were all there for him to varying degrees so obviously we want the guy to like us, but I think that most of the members of the discord are way too focused on impressing him and too focused on what he thinks of them.
When I first joined the discord I had similar worries about whether or not the guy liked me. It seemed as though there was an intentional pattern when it came to the way you were treated. In hindsight it reminds me of those Pick Up Artist types who hold seminars for incels on how to get laid by treating women like shit. You know, the hot and cold, treat ’em mean, keep ’em keen kinda negging type nonsense that results in women becoming so insecure that any scrap of attention the man pays them feels like a gift and they will try much harder to impress in order to earn whatever morsels he happens to throw their way. This, coupled with the constant victim narrative meant he tends to get away with the kind of behaviour most men wouldn’t. Being rude, dismissive, patronising and impatient. There are tons of examples of this in his streams.
I know that, for me, when he would become annoyed or angry in a game it would cause an almost visceral reaction. I stopped playing Valo with him because most of the time he would become frustrated and I didn’t want to play with him while he was in a bad mood because I didn’t want to end up being one of the targets of his frustration let alone be responsible for making it worse. S and I were both glad when he decided to stop playing the game for a while because it seemed like every time he played it he would get pissed off and berate one of the girls for taking a health pack or, god forbid, running from him.
I couldn’t even tell you the amount of times I had to “check in” on someone who had copped the brunt of one of his frustrated outbursts during a game.
Now, I need to stress that I am not suggesting that all the women in the discord are easily manipulated idiots or that they have no agency. I don’t think that at all – after all, I was a member of the discord for almost a year. I am a smart woman and I don’t consider myself to be easily manipulated. I also have friends from that discord who are incredibly intelligent women. It wouldn’t surprise me to find that a lot of the women who have made that discord a home are, to a certain degree, lonely. I’ve spoken to a handful who have mentioned that the discord is their only social life, it fills a void for them or is an escape. This makes perfect sense when you consider the discord is largely being described as a safe space for women online. They make friends in the discord and they look up to the guy who created this seemingly ideal place for them. They don’t want to lose it but at the same time, it’s not exactly helping their anxiety.
Pick me
I always wondered why there was this air of competitiveness about the discord. I just assumed it was because we were all there because we appreciated the raw talent of the man who owned it. I figured that kind of competitiveness would happen anytime you put a celebrity-esque person in a room with fans – I mean, you want them to like you. It wasn’t until later that I realised a lot of it was probably a result of what was happening behind closed doors.
I think sexting your fans is always going to result in those fans questioning whether they are the only ones. Whether they are special. I think they would assume they aren’t the only ones and that would automatically breed anxiety and competitiveness. You will also have patrons who don’t have that kind of relationship with you and want it and that, again, breeds competitiveness.
I think this is one of the reasons why the OG’s and OG Wannabes are so overly protective of him and wary of newcomers. I don’t think it’s as much to do with issues he’s had in the past as it is them gatekeeping who gets close to him because they know what’s going on in that place and they enable and encourage it. They don’t want it getting out as much as he does and they probably don’t want people getting close to him because, again, competitiveness.
Death Threats
Okay, I’ve mentioned this before but this is especially fucked up, so I’m gonna mention it again. There is someone, or several people, messaging e-girls anonymously on social media platforms. They are sending vile messages pertaining to the discord and the girls personally. I know several women who have received them and I know that some of those threats have been compiled and handed to the authorities. As I mentioned in an earlier post, this was also brought to his attention, so he has been well aware of these threats for some time now. Of course, when he was told about them he tried to imply the culprit was in our own camp. Claiming that we made enemies and that only other WoW players would have any idea of what was going on. Yeah, WoW players, your mods, your besties, your little minions..
Very recently an anon twitter account made some public tweets wishing death upon someone very close to him. This was mentioned in a couple of his announcements or rants – after exactly zero mention of threats prior to this. Apparently threats only really matter when they are made against someone in his camp. Personally, I would absolutely love to know who was behind that account. Hopefully it was reported to the police. I mean, we all know how seriously some jurisdictions take that kinda shit. At any rate we all reported the account but it was up, spewing hate, for days. Not sure if the person it was aimed at reported it, but I feel like it would have been taken down a lot sooner had they done so.
I’ve also noticed other people have been posting recently about “hate” they’ve been receiving. Probably not all related to any of this, just anonymous messages that they feel like posting about now for whatever reason. If you are using an app such as NGL, you can pay a monthly fee to be shown the location and some other info about the “anon” threats you are receiving. Just sayin’. You may not be able to pinpoint exactly who they are, but you’ll get a pretty good idea.
I’ll even show you an example. Below you can see a message I received recently:
When I click “Who sent this” you can see that it pops up with the location of the sender. This one was from Chicag… oh, it’s from my actual WoW boyfriend. I’ll be right back…
Anyway, I mean, I’ll pay for your NGL sub for a month, just be sure to let us know if they are coming from any familiar locations, yeah?
A face you can trust
He constantly bangs on about how he only ever boots people who deserve it. Trust me, if they are booted, I had good reason for doing so. Thing is, for him, the smallest slight could be a good reason, depending on who you are. Do something that irritates him, he seems to hold a grudge, and so do his OGs and OG-wannabes. The perfect example of this would be Pickles being booted from Patreon after liking a tweet about S. Yes. That’s all she did. Well, apart from associating with his arch nemesis.
I was asked to take a break. Because I seemed “really unhappy” on the server. Now, if you know anything about me, you’ll know that I questioned this because the only thing I was truly unhappy about on that server was the breakdown of my friendship with S and the fact that she seemed to have become lodged firmly up his asshole. During this brief, and pointless, conversation he claimed to not want me gone or he’d have just banned me. According to him, he just wanted me to “take a break until things smoothed over” so I wasn’t “subtweeting weirdness constantly”. I tried a few times to get him to tell me what the real issue was but he dug his heels in and banned me after misunderstanding one of my replies.
He then decided to play victim, claiming to Pickles that he thought we were friends and that I had basically spat in his face by refusing to accept his “olive branch”. Now, I know this was bullshit and he was only saying this to try and win Pickles over by making out that I was unreasonable and cruel. As I mentioned earlier, she didn’t fall for his shit and, instead, asked him if he had bothered asking me why I seemed unhappy. You know, since we were such good friends and all. Her reasoning being that a friend would want to know why their friend was unhappy. Of course he didn’t have an answer for this.
So, I guess what I would like to know is, if everyone he boots is booted for a very good reason, why was I booted? I mean, according to the man himself, we were friends and I was unhappy and he didn’t want to boot me. So clearly something happened in between him saying that and my rather unceremonious shafting.
Or this is simply a case of a guy being annoyed at a woman because he isn’t used to being challenged and, apparently, he is incredibly easily led by the people he chooses to take counsel from. The problem he faces is that the woman in question happens to be quite popular on his discord because, well, unlike some, she’s inclusive and actually nice to people. So booting her publicly isn’t really the best option. Instead he offers her an ultimatum. Hoping she will behave herself. Hoping she will take her punishment like a good girl, return, and noone would be any the wiser. Unfortunately she challenges his reasoning and his ego gets the better of him. End of story.
Age old story
I noticed how he brought up the ages of the women who have left or been booted from his discord. The assumption, of course, being that we are all old enough to “know better”. To be mature. To have lives. To be able to control our emotions and deal with things rationally, like a grown up. Comments from the stream chat would support this.
Now, when you say something like that, it kinda implies that you don’t expect as much from younger women. Like, for example, women who are in their early 20s? Or, how about women who have just turned 20, or are even younger? How about those women? Are they mature? Are they able to control their emotions and deal with things rationally, like a grown up? Just wondering.
Fly, my pretties
You know what’s really cool? A man who stands up on his platform and threatens women. You have our details? Really? You think we’ve forgotten that the lying sack of shit who runs the discord we used to frequent has our ID?
We are also well aware that you are not the only one with access to those details.
What other personal data have you retained? I mean, you admitted to sexting god knows how many of your patrons. Do you have private messages? Photos? Videos? I bet you wish you had something to that effect to hold over my head.
Have you sent your minions out to scour the net for personal info on us yet?
Speaking of which, it’s interesting to me that, for a place that claims to be pro-women, it’s the women up the top who are enabling and encouraging this behaviour. They know what is going on there, they take part in it and they help him get away with it. I have no doubt in my mind that there is no love lost between them and they are only “friends” for the sake of holding their position beside him. Without them helping to basically make social pariahs of those who have left the discord, without their efforts to spread his lies, exaggerations and false narratives, I doubt he’d have been able to get away with what he’s been doing for so long. He relies on those women to act as his guard dogs and they are perfectly happy to attack on command.
Personally, if I had a friend or someone I cared deeply about who had an addiction, I would probably be advising them to stay well away from anything that is a temptation. Or, at the very least, act on their addictions in a manner that isn’t deceptive, isn’t inappropriate and isn’t going to result in people being hurt. I definitely wouldn’t be enabling or encouraging them to behave in a way that would be detrimental to them and others.
** Those of you who are in the EU and UK and would like your personal data deleted, you can find information on the General Data Protection Regulation here. You can also find an example request letter to use here. **
Whitewash
I guess if there’s one good thing to come of this mess, it’s probably the charity streams, whether they are used as damage control or not. At least someone deserving, somewhere, is benefiting from all this bullshit.
I derive no pleasure from posting this. I take no joy in having to say these things. I wish I could just come out and say something short, to the point, and really drive home how unpleasant the underbelly of that discord is. But I can’t. I’m not one of the people in a position to do that. Nor do I blame those who are for not wanting to do that. I know they all have their reasons behind staying quiet. And most, not all, are perfectly understandable.
It’s frustrating to me that I even have to do this, but I’m not going to allow a man with a platform to paint me as some kind of entitled desperado who doesn’t respect things as important as consent. Seriously, go fuck yourself. You’re good at that.
“Be smart about who you trust, even here.“
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Damn. Ok go off queen
*stretches & groans loudly*
😂😂
That always made me roll my eyes lmao