Oh gosh, i’m still here.
I’ve had a few NGLs recently that I haven’t published. I wasn’t sure if you’d want them published or not so I decided against it. I just wanted to let you know that I received them and appreciate you. To those of you who mentioned it, I am so glad that your mental health has improved since leaving and I am glad my posts have helped in some way.
To those women who have messaged me to speak about their experiences with the discord and it’s owner, thank you for being brave enough to share with me
A common theme I keep hearing from NGLs and the women who contact me is that they feel naive or stupid for either defending him for so long or “allowing” him to manipulate them into thinking they were “special”. You are not stupid for wanting to believe him. Nor are you stupid for wanting to feel special. It’s a very pretty lie he tells and we all believed him at some stage.
There is a reason narcissistic men surround themselves with women. Men are viewed as competition while women are sustenance for their ego. They also help with the “image” – a good advertisement for the community. Remember how often you heard something along the lines of, “came for the nsfw but stayed for the community”? The women surrounding him help to reinforce that façade of safety.
badger, mushroom! Snake!
Please stop asking women for “receipts”. I know you want proof, hell I was guilty of this myself the last time this happened. “Why doesn’t anyone come out and slap down proof?” It was only toward the end, when I began to realise the extent of his behaviour, that I understood why people might be hesitant to show proof. I mean, we are talking about sexting here, intimate images, voice messages and video messages… and you expect women to just throw down screenshots for the world to see? Come on.
Also, why on earth would you expect them to show screenshots to people who are badgering them about it? You are essentially telling multiple women you don’t believe a word they are saying because they haven’t shown you proof of their experience. An experience a lot of them happen to feel naive and “stupid” over. You think they are going to show YOU their screenshots? Oh, and speaking of…
Just because YOU haven’t seen screenshots doesn’t mean they don’t exist.
*pointed look*
Yes. I have seen screenshots. Not that I needed to, I believe the women coming forward because I have experienced his lies first hand.
At any rate, what happened to believing victims? Countless women have made claims against one man, yet so many choose to believe the man? You think all those women are liars?
Do you have any idea how many women have left his discord since this all came out? Some of the women who left were vocal supporters of his, why did they all suddenly decide to leave?
holy lol
Ok, so I wasn’t going to mention this because, lord, I dunno if it deserves a mention; but the announcement nonsense I’ve been hearing about? What on earth…
So, what I’ve been told is that this guy decided to advertise his stream as though he was going to have some big announcement, then he dragged the stream out only to end with a comment about the fact he isn’t going anywhere?
Really?
So, let me get this right. He basically strung his “loyal fans” along in some sad little attempt to, what, go “ner ner nee ner ner” at some people that he claims he never gives a single thought to once he blocks them? And this was all on the off-chance that people he has booted might be watching his stream? Have I got it right?
Okay, first of all, why does he care if those people watch his streams? I mean, surely it’s a good thing. After all, you can’t buy followers on twitch, you gotta boost those dwindling numbers somehow, my man. Secondly, I thought “we” were supposed to be the obsessed ones?
No, seriously though, why? What was the end goal here? I don’t get it, because all it looks like to me is some dude who cares more about getting one over on the people who have left his discord than he does his fans. How many of his followers were sitting around, worrying about his announcement? How many were sitting, watching the stream, worrying the entire time? With all the claims coming out about him, I can only imagine some of them would have been thinking the announcement was going to be “bad”. Then, what? The announcement is just a “fuck you” to some imaginary enemy that’s supposedly stalking his stream? Instead of just, I dunno, engaging his fans and giving them a good show he gives them all anxiety instead? Yay?
It also begs the question, who knew about it? Who was in on the little stunt? Were they all sitting in stream chat laughing at how clever they are while half his followers were freaking out? Did none of them think to mention that he was basically fucking over his fans for some pissy little stab at his imaginary foes?
I mean, I guess it tracks.
Anyway, here’s the thing:
“You can’t play petty little games to bait & antagonise people then turn around and cry about harassment.”
But that’s all he’s been doing this entire time, isn’t it. Are you seeing it yet?
A man paints a bunch of women as “unhinged” then he uses his platform and anonymous accounts to antagonise in the hopes of provoking a reactive abuse response which he can then turn around and point at as proof that his original judgement was correct.
“Look! See! I told you they are attacking me!” *hides his pointy stick*
Basically you are damned if you do, damned if you don’t. You can stay quiet, like so many before you, and let him get away with what he’s doing, or you speak up and run the risk of him twisting anything you say to suit his narrative – that you are just another unhinged, obsessed woman attacking him. When, really, he’s been the one attacking you all along. He’s been the one harassing you all along. He’s been the one crossing your boundaries, gaslighting you, provoking you, making anon accounts to antagonise and tease and taunt. Because he is bored without the constant drama in his life. If he doesn’t have these evil women, nasty authors & other VAs to point at, he’d have to come up with some other way to play the victim card and get all that sympathy, which in turn allows him to exploit your caring natures, meaning he can slide into your DMs and turn on the charm and manipulate you into thinking you are special and you are helping him and, hey, wanna show me some pics of your pussy? Awesome.
You would think that the amount of times this has happened would be an instant red flag, but apparently not.
Hide & Seek
I’ve said this before but I’m gonna repeat myself because, why the fuck not.
Truthseeker is supposedly him*. Yep. The big man himself. Hiding behind an anon account to twist, gaslight, cherry-pick and manipulate ya’ll while laughing at the personal attacks his followers make one minute and posting holier than thou pontifications the next. So all of you people asking “where is he? why doesn’t he speak out about this?” don’t make the mistake of thinking he’s being the bigger person by staying silent or that he’s in the middle of “legal matters” so he can’t speak out. He isn’t. He’s been talking utter shit the entire time.
The second I started arguing with him, I knew who I was arguing with. Anyone who has ever had a private conversation with that guy would recognise the way he speaks. So basically, what, 75% of his patrons? That’s if you’re paying attention.
Don’t believe me? Fine. I don’t particularly care. Either way you slice it, it’s him. He’d never admit it, of course, and if they ever do a reveal, which they won’t, it won’t be him. Regardless, as I said before, there is no way any of those anon accounts would be allowed to post on his behalf without his say so. He would shut that shit down in a heartbeat if he didn’t want it happening. Anyone who knows anything about him at all knows that’s the truth.
(*Edited to add: this information came from JK. Knowing what I know now, however, I don’t know how much of what she was sharing was true)
SEND IN THE LAWYERS
Three years of this shit. Three years of calling women obsessed, unhinged harassers. Three years of being accused of some of the most heinous things by god knows how many people. Three years of allegedly being doxed.
“But where are the lawyers?
There ought to be lawyers
Well, maybe next year”
I’m not fuckin’ leavin’ either.
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