Pickles was asked to tell her story so she’s taken the time to write something up for you. If you have come here looking for saucy gossip, you won’t find it. Pickles had a good relationship with EROS up until I was booted and she felt he became manipulative in his dealings with her. Anyway, her story is below.
I joined the server at the start of December 2021 and left at the end of January 2023. Some of the stuff I will talk about has already been mentioned in Frontbum’s blog, but I do have extra information to add.
I was one of those women who joined the server because of his audios and stayed because of the community. At the start it really did seem great and it did have a lot of potential, so did E***. But now I don’t believe that his community was started with good intentions. The bigger the community got the more problems that followed, the more toxic it became and the more E*** let the mask slip.
From the start I could see that there was a hierarchy in place, you had E***, the mods and the girls who had already been around for a while and who would later be known as the OGs. These women weren’t the most welcoming so I decided to keep my distance.
I learned very early on that E*** was sexting with women from his community despite what was said on his patreon, in his announcements and during his calls. Even though I knew he was lying I didn’t say anything. At the time I thought he didn’t want to publicize it because he didn’t want his community to be flooded with women who only wanted that kind of attention from him. As far as I was aware at the time, this was happening between consenting adults but I really didn’t know the extent of it all. I was also scared because I had seen what happened to women who spoke up, even if they only spoke up to the mods. I only really started to learn the extent of what was going on towards the end of my time in the community and after I had left. When you’re out of the community it becomes clear why E*** pushes the narrative he does about why women left or were removed from the community. It’s also clear why he makes it seem as though you need to choose between him and those on the outside. I believe he needs to cause a divide between those in the community and those on the outside because he doesn’t want women talking, he doesn’t want women learning what type of person he really is.
The OGs would basically keep tabs on any women they didn’t like. This was probably discussed in their private channel within the E*** server or in their own server – something both E*** and his mods were aware of. When people talk about “lists”, they could be talking about a number of lists that were kept by E***, the Mods, the OGs or his spies. Yes, E*** uses spies to spy on other servers, and sometimes the women in his own server. Some of this I learnt from other women in the server and some from a mod. During one particular conversation I was told that E*** will keep certain women close to him out of fear, you know the whole “keep your friends close and enemies closer”. So, while we all thought he was friends with these women, he often had his own motives for keeping them around.
There was one particular conversation I had with a mod that shed a lot of light on how the server was run and some insight into things that were happening on there. The main take away was that nothing happened on that server without E***’ approval. E*** and the mods knew about the list the OGs would keep and the fact that the OGs would keep their eyes on certain women. Mods would, obviously, screenshot anything you went to them about, send it to E*** or put it in the mod chat for E*** to decide what should be said or done.
The mod I spoke with admitted to “having her time” with E*** and made it clear she knew what was happening between E*** and some of the women in the server. From the conversation I had with this mod, and conversations I’ve had with other women from the server, I initially had the impression that E*** isn’t really forthcoming with his mods or they just believed all his lies, but that changed later when I was shown a conversation between a member of the community and another moderator.
In the conversation I was shown, the mod in question straight up lied to the woman, who was concerned about what E*** was doing. The woman had approached this mod about things that were being said on twitter about E***, involving sexting and asking women for photos. This mod basically said it was a lie, and that many women have implied something was going on between them and E***. She said that E*** doesn’t do anything like that and, if he did, she wouldn’t work for him. Later he was forced to admit publicly to the sexting and could no longer keep up the pretense. Despite this the moderator in question is still working for him.
When it comes to my relationship with E***, there really isn’t much to it. During my time in the server I got “E-ttention” and I didn’t mind it, I also didn’t expect it or seek it out. I was pretty laid back about it. I can’t remember exactly when or how our sexting started. I think it was during one of my morning sessions, I can’t remember if I had messaged him about the audio I was listening to or if he had just seen I was connected and decided to message me. On lovense you can see who is online and what toys they have connected. E*** knew this and never shared that detail when he would suggest women add him on the app, even after the patterns became public.
The sexting between us wasn’t as frequent or constant as with other women, it happened on and off during my time and I really didn’t care. There were times I would message him on lovense occasionally to see if he was around and wanted to play (these were usually during my mornings because that’s when I masturbate). It was fun and I enjoyed it. Sometimes I would just send him a message afterward because he liked knowing his girls were “cumming for him”, but there were also times he would message me first or slide into my dms while I was already masturbating. I didn’t have a problem with that because we had already set those boundaries, just as we had when we had a discussion about me sending photos. A conversation about my profile pic led to discussions on photos and, eventually, “whatever you feel comfortable sending, I consent to”.
I didn’t get too personal with E***, we didn’t really talk about our issues like he did with other women. I didn’t expect or want anything from him.
Our relationship was fine until he tried to manipulate me because I remained friends with Frontbum. I know the lies E*** has been saying about me, that I’m upset because he decided to say no, and that’s bullshit. The last time we sexted was just before Christmas. When Frontbum was booted, I decided to stop interacting with him in that way. We continued speaking on Instagram after that.
One of the reasons I decided to leave the server was because he began trying to manipulate me and lied to me about my friend. After Frontbum was removed from the server several of us continued to be friends with her and didn’t hide that fact. E*** reached out to me, wanting information on the people who had left the server, asking who he needed to ban along with them because people were sharing their opinion of him and the server but no one would share names – “everyone’s hiding behind anonymity”.
He told me that anyone who was still friends with Frontbum after what she had done and had been saying was “looking more sus every day”. When I asked what she had done he wouldn’t tell me.
At this point in time there were still a few women interacting with Frontbum, but I only really talked to two of them (Woman A & B). I gave those two the heads-up, that E*** was calling people associating with Frontbum “sus”, so they could decide what they wanted to do with that information. Both those women then approached E***, so he was aware I had told them.
Interestingly, right after this happened, both women had strange incidents occur involving anonymous messages.
Woman A received an anonymous threatening message, the gist of it being that E*** hated her, didn’t want her in the server and that they were going to help get rid of her. She approached one of the mods/E*** about the anonymous message and they pointed the finger at “Woman Z“, a previous member of the community. This made no sense at all to Woman A, as she hardly knew Woman Z. Woman Z, however did make an easy target for reasons I won’t go into on here.
Woman B was told by E*** that he had been warned anonymously not to trust her. Whether this is true or not is anyone’s guess.
After finding out about the messages that had come to, or been about the only two women I had approached after speaking with him, I asked him who else knew he thought we were “sus”. He replied only me, Woman A and Woman B.
During this conversation I told him that if me being the server made him uncomfortable, I would leave but he told me he didn’t want me to. At this point he started lying to me about his final conversation with Frontbum. According to him he had offered her an “olive branch”, which she refused, she continued to “escalate” and basically “spat in his face”. I knew these were all lies because I had seen the conversation already and knew it was actually pretty civil on both sides.
During this time the attention I got increased. We weren’t sexting, as I’d stopped those interactions with him, but I started receiving VMs on Instagram, which I normally didn’t get. He posted a twitter audio because I requested it and I started getting invited to play with him on WoW. I feel like this is one of the ways he tries to manipulate you: by giving women the attention he thinks will make them do what he wants. Woman B started receiving more attention too and, unfortunately, the ploy worked. She had been hiding who she was interacting with, avoiding being seen gaming with certain people but she had planned to leave – especially after he treated her badly during stream games. When he started being nice and paying attention to her, she changed her mind and decided to stay.
After I left the server I was asked to leave the patreon because of a tweet I had liked about S****. E*** confirmed that this was the reason I was asked to leave. I would be one of the very few women who actually got an explanation as to why I was asked to leave. It was in this same conversation he would admit to the reason he asked Frontbum to leave. I knew that what he was saying was a lie and tried to straighten it up but E*** blew up at me for even speaking to Frontbum about it. It was obvious to me that he didn’t care about the truth.
After this, women started speaking out. They were reaching out to my friends and me, and some started sharing their stories. What everyone has seen so far really is just the tip of the iceberg. Many women don’t want to go public with their stories and I can understand why, but plenty have shared their stories privately.
You are probably wondering why I chose to speak out since my interactions with E*** weren’t really bad. I’m speaking out because I learned that the experience I had with E*** wasn’t the same as the experience other women had. I’ve seen messages of him asking women for photos, asking them to show him their pussy. I’ve seen him pressuring them even after they have said no. I’ve seen the messages where he tells a woman to ignore the advice of her therapist – nearly all of you have seen it. One of the things that absolutely disgusted me when reading those messages was the end where he tells her he “looks forward to playing with her” later. That’s one of the things I’ve noticed about E*** and I think it’s how he gets away with things. He chooses his phrasing carefully, by using the word “play”, he could be talking about video games. I also know he was asked to stay away from someone because they were in a vulnerable place but he pursued them anyway and I know it’s happened to other women.
My warning to women who are still in that community or looking to join is that they can’t trust E***, the mods or the OGs. The mods won’t help you or protect you from E***, they have and will continue to lie and cover for him. The OGs are the same, we have already seen what some of them are willing to do to help cover it up and protect him. E*** is a manipulative, lying c*** who has been using his voice and platform for years to take advantage of women.
I know some of the lies he has been spreading about me and I don’t care because the people who matter know the truth and support me. I’ve got no problem telling my truth and sharing what I know so other women don’t get hurt. I will answer any questions anyone has and share what I can when I can.
Pickles 🍒
LadyFrontbum
First thing’s first: I didn’t post tweets because I knew he would see them. I posted them because I was irritated and I knew he was a liar. Was I hoping some of the women I liked from the discord would see them and maybe think about who they were supporting? Sure, I was concerned about several of the women in that place.
It was interesting that he referred to me as a friend because he certainly didn’t treat me like one when he was asking me to leave. There was a time when I thought we could become friends but, as time went on, it became apparent that friendship with him is not something I would have pursued. I can tell when someone is lying to me or using manipulative conversational tactics and, personally, I’m not a fan.
Anyway, I fell in love with Pickles a little when she brought up the fact that friends ask friends what is wrong. The dude messaged me once in the entire time I was on that discord and rarely initiated any kind of conversation with me. Sure, in hindsight, I was a dumbass simp for a while there, but we were never friends.
I was, however, friends with S****. As it turns out she wasn’t friends with me.
I’m not going to go into the bullshit he spouted in those screenshots because I could talk all day about that farce of a friendship that he clearly has no idea about. Needless to say, I suspect a lot of lies are being told by certain people. At any rate, the guy doesn’t understand the concept of friendship at all and, I’ll say it again, there’s a good reason she booted both me and fibs from our group chat so we can’t access it. For those of you who don’t speak latin: she had a hell of a lot more to hide than we did.
“Why not kick her, I’m overall confused”
Welp, she was more surprised that he was asking me to leave rather than the fact it was happening in the first place.
Such a great friend. The concern is heartwarming, really. Lol.
Clearly the whole WoW boyfriend thing was a sore spot. I have touched on this before, so you’ll have to forgive me for going into it again. He’s referring to a WoW player named Horni***, who was actually a friend a couple of us made while playing the game. A 22 year old friend. Unlike some people, I prefer my partners a little closer to my own age.
So, basically, we were playing WoW with Horni***. Flew down to one of the bosses and R**** happened to be there. Everything is fine until she decides to post a SS of him in the WoW channel on the discord, pretending she doesn’t know who he is. E*** replied. A conversation ensued – entirely manufactured on her part (probably his too, who fucken knows at this point).
Fibs literally flew to Enkine with our friend. Landed with him. We were standing with him. Talking to him. Right next to her when she interacted with us. Anyway it was so transparent what was happening, I was sick of her constant underhanded highschool antics and making the women feel like crap by shit-talking pugs with E***. So, no, I wasn’t “snippy” with everyone. Just one particular shit-stirrer.
“He’s always hanging around the girls in Val”. Yeah, no shit, Sherlock. It’s an MMO.
The voice kink? That was about another friend having a nice voice. Which he does. He’s also a good WoW player who helped us with keys at the time, since we weren’t getting any help from our guild. I always thought Eros had a gorgeous voice, I’d said as much on multiple occasions. I’d also been clear that, while I did recognise and appreciate his talent, I joined that discord primarily for the community and gaming. Here’s the thing, I knew he had a gf who was a member of the community, was almost half my age, was friends with one of my closest friends on there and quite obviously wasn’t dealing with her situation very well. Even if I did have a voice kink, that knowledge alone would have been enough to make my vagina shrivel closed permanently where he was concerned.
Anyway, I’ll just leave you with this because it was one of my favourite parts of his messages to Pickles and should give you an idea of just how incredibly full of shit these two people are.
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